You called me to your room & asked me for my presence.Why so long, you asked.Why didn't you come right away?Were you ever coming? Why the unending delay?I lay there beside you, my arm draped over your bodythe weight of my presence soothing, calming -a lullaby without words.I looked into your eyes and began to weep.How could you need me so deeply?How could I be of such comfort?How could i calm your heart when mine is so lost?The weight of responsibilityin my mind, the thoughts tossed.Our … [Read more...] about Come to Me
Passions and Poetry
“What is that you express in your eyes? It seems to me more than all the print I have read in my life.” Walt Whitman Getting to know our kids is one of those adventures that is always full of surprises. In our time here in PNG, I've enjoyed spending lunches once a week with a different one of our kids and having 'dates' with them where we spend time doing something that they love. For some, that means colouring and chatting, for others it means listening to them chat about Minecraft, for … [Read more...] about Passions and Poetry
Anxiety
This is me a year ago and this is me now. Two years. Two photos. Two seemingly identical photos of the person you know and see but two starkly different stories going on behind the photos.You see, a year ago, I was in the throws of anxiety. I didn’t know it as anxiety. I knew it as my life but it had become unmanageable. To be honest, it had probably become unmanageable years ago but I ignored the signs and kept struggling along - assuming the constant cycle of fear, worry, expectation, … [Read more...] about Anxiety
Way Maker
Jacob Alexander McCarthy.Shirt inside out. Glasses missing. Clothes worn for the third day in a row (I promise he doesn't stink, we just can't get him to change and we ran out of energy to fight it). Mind racing. Body moving.Too busy to eat breakfast. Too distracted to complete some tasks. Too full of questions and thoughts to make some simple decisions. Incredibly smart but perpetually scattered. Beautifully creative but organizationally challenged. Incredibly musically gifted but doubtful of … [Read more...] about Way Maker
Erasing Expectations
When I imagined my life as a parent, I never imagined the magnitude of the responsibility or the depth of the joy. I never imagined the weightiness of the love or the all-encompassing nature of the role. I never imagined the depth of the uncertainty or the ability of the task to overwhelm and confuse. I imagined my existing life rolling along and taking with it these new lives with each turn and season. Another few years, another little human. Another few years and yet another person to … [Read more...] about Erasing Expectations
