Have you ever felt lost? In the midst of reality struggling to cross over mind, heart and soul to a new time and place while a part of your life's vanished fast - without trace. One day I was there, today somewhere else. Am I who I was there or that self will I shelve while I sort out next steps; fresh starts sometimes mean that a former self flickers - is lost in between these two lives that I live and each one not the same from what this world's like now and the way it had been. So I float in this place that's not here nor is there but while floating I find I am made more aware of unshakeable God. He lives here and lives there. He's over and under - not caught unaware of the challenges faced by the children He loves without even pause, yes, He loves us because we're His own - made for Him - not for here or for there. Made for Heaven, eternity - His presence to share So this ache that we feel - that's brought on by a jumble of life's steady landmarks removed, makes us stumble away from the things that we cling to for safety. Instead to His arms, to His words, to the way we are named by His love. His protection. His plan His ability always to hold out His hand and envelop our fears - our fragile identities to point us to bigger, to eternal certainties illumined by breaks in the steadiness of life. He calls out to us, most audibly through strife. In the place we are floating - the here and the now. We answer His sweet call. Surrender. Allow Him to hold us securely as we float through this season to trust that He has not just love, but a reason for letting us feel so unanchored, unsure for letting us face this and feel insecure if it points our eyes up to our unchanging anchor. Lord, God, while I"m floating please help me remember I'm yours now and then There and here just the same. I'm called by your love. Forgiven and named by the One who has made me and knows all the ends of my journeys on this Earth - all part of His plan and help me to look for your mark in this place for though I am floating, I'm held by your grace.