Floating Between

Have you ever felt lost?
In the midst of reality struggling to cross
over mind, heart and soul to a new time and place
while a part of your life's vanished fast - without trace.

One day I was there, today somewhere else.
Am I who I was there or that self will I shelve 
while I sort out next steps; fresh starts sometimes mean
that a former self flickers - is lost in between
these two lives that I live and each one not the same
from what this world's like now and the way it had been.

So I float in this place that's not here nor is there
but while floating I find I am made more aware
of unshakeable God. He lives here and lives there.
He's over and under - not caught unaware
of the challenges faced by the children He loves
without even pause, yes, He loves us because
we're His own - made for Him - not for here or for there.
Made for Heaven, eternity - His presence to share

So this ache that we feel - that's brought on by a jumble
of life's steady landmarks removed, makes us stumble 
away from the things that we cling to for safety.
Instead to His arms, to His words, to the way
we are named by His love.
His protection.
His plan 
His ability always to hold out His hand 
and envelop our fears - our fragile identities
to point us to bigger, to eternal certainties 
illumined by breaks in the steadiness of life.
He calls out to us, most audibly through strife.

In the place we are floating - the here and the now.
We answer His sweet call. Surrender.
Allow Him to hold us securely as we float through this season
to trust that He has not just love, but a reason
for letting us feel so unanchored, unsure
for letting us face this and feel insecure
if it points our eyes up to our unchanging anchor.
Lord, God, while I"m floating please help me remember
I'm yours now and then 
There and here just the same.
I'm called by your love.
Forgiven and named by the One who has made me
and knows all the ends 
of my journeys on this Earth - all part of His plan
and help me to look for your mark in this place
for though I am floating, I'm held by your grace.