This is me a year ago and this is me now. Two years. Two photos. Two seemingly identical photos of the person you know and see but two starkly different stories going on behind the photos.You see, a year ago, I was in the throws of anxiety. I didn’t know it as anxiety. I knew it as my life but it had become unmanageable. To be honest, it had probably become unmanageable years ago but I ignored the signs and kept struggling along - assuming the constant cycle of fear, worry, expectation, … [Read more...] about Anxiety
McCarthy Musings
Way Maker
Jacob Alexander McCarthy.Shirt inside out. Glasses missing. Clothes worn for the third day in a row (I promise he doesn't stink, we just can't get him to change and we ran out of energy to fight it). Mind racing. Body moving.Too busy to eat breakfast. Too distracted to complete some tasks. Too full of questions and thoughts to make some simple decisions. Incredibly smart but perpetually scattered. Beautifully creative but organizationally challenged. Incredibly musically gifted but doubtful of … [Read more...] about Way Maker
Erasing Expectations
When I imagined my life as a parent, I never imagined the magnitude of the responsibility or the depth of the joy. I never imagined the weightiness of the love or the all-encompassing nature of the role. I never imagined the depth of the uncertainty or the ability of the task to overwhelm and confuse. I imagined my existing life rolling along and taking with it these new lives with each turn and season. Another few years, another little human. Another few years and yet another person to … [Read more...] about Erasing Expectations
Where Do We Run?
Reassurance. Uncertainty. Comfort.These words were on my heart this morning after my very ordinary task of dropping the kids off at school. For the past 18 months, people all over the world have been enduring a season of change. A season of unknowns. A season of new normals . A season of new routines and uncertainty. For the past month, those new normals have changed again in Papua New Guinea - bringing new restrictions in the hopes of slowing the spread of Covid within this beautiful country. … [Read more...] about Where Do We Run?
Transitions
Transitions. Transitions is one of those 'buzz' words in missions and a word that, to be honest, I sometimes get tired of hearing. I think that my main aversion to this word is that it is not a word that is reserved for missionaries so I feel the need to explain that fact anytime I might find myself using it. It is a reality for those who are moving often, no matter what the reasons, and certainly not just for missionaries but it is a very real thing anytime you uproot your family and move … [Read more...] about Transitions
